IDentity after ED

This is something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately – especially as I’ve come up on and passed the one year anniversary of starting intensive outpatient treatment for my own ED.

I’m “recovered” as they’d say, but they also say “you’ll always be in recovery.” So both are true.

And that can be confusing.

I think the identity crisis that happens for a lot of people after an ED looks similar and different. It’s definitely a lot of “What now?” and “What am I even interested in when my mind is not consumed over food?” read more

self-care is not self control

I shared this on my Instagram, but wanted to share here –

self-care is not self control.” – i heard this quote on an old @chr1styharrison podcast that i was revisiting the other day. .
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i’ve noticed when we’re stressed, sick, or riding tough seasons, our knee jerk reaction can be to masquerade self control as self care. i’m [stressed, sad, anxious] so i’ll [work out more, eliminate “bad” foods, keep myself super busy]
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would send a little challenge out into the instagram world to practice self care over all of that. sometimes it’s therapeutic to write out what those things are for you. kinda like a self-care toolbox ✨👍🏻🍃
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so instead of demanding of yourself MORE this, LESS this!!! maybe just be and do the life giving things. some of mine: painting, tech free movie time, DIY projects, cooking a meal from scratch. ❤️ read more

(sick) day in the life

I got whatever it is that is going around. Honestly, I’m giving my immune system a huge pat on the back because I really made it pretty far into allergy season before officially getting sick. And getting sick happens. Trying to remind myself that I’m not invincible and no one feels 100% every single day.

During some quiet morning time, I was reading a bunch of Kylie’s Day in the Life posts and thought I’d really like to make my own. They are fun to write and read, and I feel like when I do blog, I need something easy and light like these! read more

To Strengthen and Soften (1.17.19)

Phew! I feel like I really need to get a blog post out about how my heart and head feels. My friend, Katrina, and I have a running joke that goes a little something like “2019 …. keeping me humble.” (Because – it truly is.)

I feel like I always end a year grasping at straws, which is a little discouraging and dark, but it’s just an honest way of describing what happens to me as fall turns to winters and work deadlines get tighter, life gets busier, and the lines across budget spreadsheets get fuzzy with Christmas presents and travel plans. It’s a lot of anxiety-sparking little electrical fires that seem to pop up throughout the gloomy, cold days of October to December, and while I take a little reprieve in the sweet, sweet truths of the holiday season, I feel a bit of emotional burn out come January 1. read more